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Alright so yeah before I start I just want to say that im not writing this so people can feel sorry for me I just really need help!!!!!!!!! K so for a while now I have been kinda getting sick of Jessica becuz she has changed so much and its not for the better and I just really really bugs me but I have delt with it and was going to continue doing it because she is one of my best friends and we have been friends for a long time so ya no u just deal with stuff like that when ur in that position. Well the dealing with it plan didn’t turn out good becuz I made the dumb mistake of thinking that Shannon was my best friend and I could talk to her about stuff. Yesterday I was really tired and cranky and just the littlest things were making me made ya no everyone has those days so being like this the whole Jessica thing got on my nerves way more then before so I was talkin to Shannon after school and I said some things to her about Jessica that I didn’t mean and should not have said people do that when they and frustrated and upset. Oh and one important thing to no about this story is that I am not the only one that thinks Jessica has changed a lot I am DEFINITLY not the only one im just the only one that has enough guts to tell her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway so I turns out that Shannon told Jessica everything that I said and so she came up to me today and said I don’t know y u think im such a bitch and y u hate me sooo much. And I want u to no that I don’t talk about u behind ur back then I told her that the whole bitch and hating her thing was me being mad and that I didn’t mean it and that I was really sorry for that. And I was upset becuz she has changed so much and I don’t like it and she told Kyle that I would just have to deal with it. Oh and paige isn’t talkin to me for some reason but w/e I don’t even care!!!!!! So at lunch paige and Shannon and Jessica all sat at a different table cuz there wasn’t any room at ours so I was there with all of Kyle’s friends and I didn’t go sit over by them becuz paige wasn’t talkin to me and Jessica I wasn’t really sure about so pretty much I new I would just set there and stare at the wall!!! Then when hse got done eating Shannon came by me and said we only sat there cuz there was no room over here and I said I no then she stood there for a min. and went back with Jessica and paige. Then in Spanish I talked to Shannon a little and I was ganna talk to her on the bus but apparently it doesn’t really matter to her that we barly talk cuz she sat with ethan even though she saw me and could have said no I don’t I want to set with tiffany but I guess she didn’t want to so whatever. I mean I no that I have not been like talkative to Shannon but that’s only becuz I could not believe she told Jessica that I mean I was just talkin to her I thought that she was someone I could talk to I mean I had to tell someone I couldn’t just keep it all inside I thought I cold trust her and I thought she would just be there for me when I was sooo frustrated and just needed her to listen but I guess I was wrong!!! Now I really just don’t know what to do I really feel like I have lost all my friends!!!!!! Oh another thing I no that all my friends are ganna say is we don’t hang out with u becuz u are always with kyle! Alright true I am always with kyle I will admitt that but it is becuz all we do is follow Jessica around and do what she wants and I am not ganna do that, that isn’t fun for me so yeah that’s y I don’t hang out with them that much!!! So im really lost and frustrated I am mostly scared that Ive lost Shannon cuz we don’t talk in school only a little in Spanish we don’t hang out at games we don’t hang out in the morning we don’t set together on the bus and we don’t talk on the phone after school! I mean I no that I am with kyle when maybe she want to hang out with me when we don’t have to follow jess but she never tells me I have told her over and over again that if im with him and she wants to talk or hang out then all she has to do is say something and I will but she doesn’t so if I don’t know then there isn’t really anything I can do. So think what im ganna do is just keep on goin on with my life and let Shannon do whatever she wants I mean im not ganna say will u plezz just hang out with me she has to choose to hang out with me im ot ganna ask her to if she doesn’t want to and hopefully she will figure out that I have always been there for her and I have always been the best friend that I could even if a lot of the time I don’t get it back and I feel taken for granted I still am as good a friend as I can to her. But yeah I guess that’s it if anyone has any advise for me then leave a comment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just want ot say sorry to Jessica for everything I said and to paige for whatever I did to her!!! And sorry to all of u that have to put up with me I no I have been on the bitchy side latly I am extremely stressed out and tired all the time and I really do apologize!!!!!!! And thank u to kyle, kelly, Laura, and Brittany. U guys have really helped with my stress and I no u will always be there for me!!!!!

Love always Tiffany

So yea un grounded………………and lovin it!!!!! So since I have been ungrounded I have:

went to the beach with Shannon and kyle and me and Shannon jumped off the pier and it was way fun!! And we saw Risa and david there with other people it was a tiny bit yeah…………..but yeah im pretty much over it.

And I went to my aunt and uncles house to stay with them and baby sit my four cousins and that was fun.

And on the 15^th we had a car wash for Costa Rica!!! Kyle and george came to help and it was fun fun stuff im not sure how much we made tho. Then at the end ethan and drew showed up and we stoped the car wash early so we were all just chillin then kyle and george left and ethan told me that kyle was getting the really really awesome car for his b-day. Like a month ago he was telling me that there was this car that this guy was selling and his dad was ganna try and get it fro him then later and said that someone else got it so yeah he was like mad about it and I felt really bad cuz I could tell how bad he wanted it. But yeah his dad really did get it but was waiting to saprise him on his birthday!!! When ethan told me I was like so happy I wanted to tell kyle sooooo bad but ya no I couldn’t.

Then like on his birthday I was like sooo excited!!!!!!!! When he got it he called me and he was like I got a car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I was really he was like yeah that one that my dad said he didn’t get he really did and yeah!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KYLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh and the day before his birthday my mom let him come over becuz my dad wasn’t home and yeah it was sooo much fun!!!!!!

On Thursday paige came over and we went to the movies with kyle to see war of the worlds. Paige threw gum in kyles hair and it got stuck so she was all like pullin it out and brushin his hair and it was really loud!!!! I no it don’t sound very funny but it was like soooo funny but u kinda had to be there hahahahaha!!! After the movie me and paige like ate a whole bunch of food and like had soooo much fun!!!!!

On Friday Shannon and gabby came over and then Cheryl called and wanted us to go straighten her hair then we went back to my house and kyle came over to show me his car and me and shannnon went for a ride I was way fun. Then later me Shannon, gabby and paige went to the beach and we had like so much fun. Then Shannon got mad at paige cuz she was tryin to talk to kris and she was like in the back ground yellin all this mean crap so he was like Shannon Im ganna go an hung up. So then paige wouldn’t talk to he so my and Shannon just hung out the I had to leave at 11 so Shannon walked back to my house with me and we dicided to swim for like 2 min. it was sooooo much fun!!!!

Sat. I worked then we went out on our boat!!!

And sun. I stayed the night at paiges becuz we were ganna do this day camp thing and the church by her house. But it was like really lame. Last year was like way more fun. And we were ganna go on Tuesday but we dicided not to and I think she is goin back today but im not.

But yeah on mon. night me paige and kyle went to the beach and we saw Shannon, gabby, nick, and doofer there and we were like all chillin and it was sooooooooo soooooooooo much fun!!!!! And yeah that’s about it!!!!!

Well g2g luv yall!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ Tiff

Ok so its been like forever since I Have updated and that’s becuz I have been grounded for 2 weeks and im still grounded right now. Ok heres the super long story my parents and brother were goin to go to the races and I couldn’t go becuz I had to work. Oh and I should prolly say that my parents have really retarted rules and im not aloud to go to kyles house and hes not aloud to come to mine unless we are having like and party or something. Anyway I got the idea that I could got to kyles house after I got done working becuz my parents wouldn’t be home until like 11:30. So I talked to kyle about it and he said his cousins open house was that day and I should go with them and meet his family that has been waiting almost 4 months to meet me. Being the stupid person that I am I dicided I wouldn’t ask my parents thinking they would say no then be suspicious if I tried to go anyway. So his parents picked me up from work and we went and I met his family ( they were all really nice and I wish they were mine LOL) well then my mom called me on my cell phone and she asked were I was so I told her I was bvabysittin with shannnon and so she wanted the # of the place so I told her the phone was disconnected. Then she called back like 5 min. later and wanted to talk to Shannon and of course Shannon wasn’t there so we got kyles cousin sami to talk and she did a good job I thought. Then like 10 min. later Shannon called and said that my mom just called her house and left a message 4 her mom to call her back and Shannon said her mom wouldn’t lie for me becuz if it was switched around she wouldn’t want my mom to lie to her ( yeah like that would ever happen) so yeah I was crying cuz I knew that I was died and I would never see kyle ar any of my friends for a really long time so yeah I tried to have fun the rest of the time I was there. Kyles parents were so nice they both talked to me and kinda made me feel a little better bout the whole thing and his mom said she would call my mom in the morning.

So when I got home I just sat there finding it really hard to move I have never in my life lied to my parent ( when they found out about it anyway) and I felt horrible I had no idea what they were ganna do I was scared out of my mind!!!!!! When they got home I was in my room and my mom came in and took my cell phone and she started yellin and cryin at the same time and she said this is just the start injoy this nice stuff u have wel u can cuz 2marrow its gone. She said she could not belive I lied to her like that and that I brook her heart!!!!! Ive never felt so bad about anything in my life I have always been a good kid and always followed my parents waked out rules and I will never ever brake them like this again!!!!!!!

So the next day I got grounded foe at least to weeks depending on my behavior. I got my cell phone, the regular phone, my tv, the regular tv, and the computer takin away for 2 weeks also. And I no 2 weeks don’t sound like a long time but its way longer then u would think. And most parents just dont let the kid leave and they can still watch tv and crap. So yeah I have just been chillin and I miss everyone soooooo much and like yeah I just call Shannon and kyle when im home alone. I have actually done alt I went to the dunes with my grandma and cousin. Then my aunt and uncle stayed with us and my family came over for the 4^th of july and my 2 cousins stayed her 2 nights cuz there mom just had surgery and my mom wanted to give her a brake. But I havnt seen kyle and I miss him like crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I get ungrounded in like 3 days I think!!! But I g2g luv u all and miss u guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TIFFY

So yeah its been like 4 ever cuz I havnt been able to get online!!!! And I was like sooo sooo sooo mad about it cuz I didn’t get to say wooooooohoooooooo todays my birthday on my birthday and now my birthdays been over for like a week its sooo sad!!!!! So any way my birthday was last Sunday!!!!!!!!!! Woooooooohoooooooo!! Haha

So I dont remember when I updated last but we got out of school its sad cuz now im never ganna see any of my friends and im ganna miss them sooo much and becuz of my parents stupid rules I will never see kyle we have only seen each other 3 times and that’s just retarted and yeah soo that’s all I hear about from him and it makes me feel really bad!!!! Paige is grounded but becuz she has been soo good she gets ungrounded early and I cant wait cuz me and her are ganna be hangin out a lot when Shannon goes to her dads. Im really sad bout that to even tho I no she will be coming home a lot im still ganna miss her I always do cuz when ever im bored I just call her cuz shes right there and I don’t have ot get a ride so its easy for us to hang out.

But yeah then on Sunday for my birthday and my dads my family came over and we ate and swam in the pool and stuff it was fun and I got a dvd player some lotion and carp and the movie the notebook woooooooohoooo and 70 dollars! Then Shannon came over and stayed the night and we watched the notebook cuz she had never seen it before she liked it and we both cried.

Then on Monday my mom took me Shannon, Kyle, Paige and Kelly to the Grandville mall for my b-day!!! It was way fun!!! We ate and I opened my presents! I got $10 from kelly thanks sooo much kelly u vbout that lip gloss for me lol thanks a lot I love u!!!!! then kyle gave me this perfume that I have been wanting I love it sooo much and he gave me a picture fram with a pic of me and him and the movie mean girls!!!! And his mom got me a candle and made me a finding nemo blanket it is sooooo pretty I love it soooo much and I love his mom she is soooo nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shannon got me some body spry, eye liner, and a little blue brush thanks Shannon even tho I don’t really have them yet thanks hahaha!!!! And I really wanted these flip flops when we were in pacsun but I kinda wanted to save my money so I didn’t get them but when we were in dicks paige went back there and got them for me……thank u soooo much paige I love u!!!!!!! but yeah we had a lot of fun I loved it I hope everyone else had fun too!!!! Then after that Paige went with me to get my cell phone!!!!!!!!! Its sooo cute it’s a flip phone and and I love it!!!!!

Then like the rest of the week I didn’t really do anything then on Thursday my and Shannon and kyle and nick went to the movies to see mr. And mrs. Smith it was really good!!!

Then on sat. I have to work . I worked for 8 and a half hours it was not fun!! Then I talked to kyle and then Jessica that I went to shannons at like 10 and we talked to ethan it was fun and then i came home at like 11.

On Sunday my grandma and grandpa came over and we ate chicken it was good then I went to shannons for like and hour!!

So yeah that’s bout it I g2g luv yall!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~*Tiffany*~

So the whole civics and science projects didn’t turn out that bad at all. Civics I did really good and in science our group started ours but we have to finish on Monday but I think it was good so far.

So this weekend started so bad!!!!!!! On Friday I did nothing cuz Kyle had a baseball game and Shannon was at Paige’s house so that’s pretty much the people I do stuff with lol.

Then on sat. I had to work but I had to leave early cuz my parents wanted to go up north and if I would have stayed the whole time I wouldn’t have had a ride home so I left at noon. Then when I got home my mom and dad left and my brother was at work so I was really lonely!! So I called Kyle and talked to him for a while but then he had to g cuz he was goin to Georges. Then like I called Shannon to see if she was ganna be able to go to the movies with me but she said she didn’t no. then later she called to see if her and Paige could come over and when they were her Kyle called to see if I was goin to the movies but Shannon wasn’t ganna go cuz she was goin back to Paige’s so I was like well I don’t have a way to get there so I cant go. Then like Shannon and Paige had to leave. And I was soooo upset not so much becuz I couldn’t go but more becuz on like Thursday I talked to Shannon and asked her if she would do something with me and Kyle and who ever else on like sat. night or sun. and she was like yea I will try. Then like she didn’t try at all so I was like almost crying becuz I was ganna be setting in my house, literally all by my self with nothing to do. And it made me feel so bad that like my 2 best friends would leave me out soo bad like that I mean they never even invited me to do anything with them and it made me feel horrible I mean I understand if they want to be just them without me for like ya no the on night or whatever but even the next day and night they still didn’t even ask me even knowing that I was ganna be there all by myself!!! But im not sayin anything to either one of them about it becuz they will both think im being dumb and they wont understand and they will like gang up on me and make me feel worse and that’s the last thing I need on the last week of school!!! So yeah that really sucked but my weekend so way way way better!

Cuz right after they left I got the best idea like ever!!!!!! So I called Shannon’s phone and I was like will u guys wait like ten min so ur mom can drop me off at Kyle’s house and then we could go to the movie from there and his dad would take me home. So like I went to his house for like a half hour before the movie and then we went to the movie and then after we walked back to his house and I stayed there for like 2 hours!! We played basketball for a while then we watched 50 first dates and yeah it was like sooooooo much fun and I was like soooo happy and the weekend got like sooo much better!!! And like im not even supposed to be going to Kyles house or to the movies with just him but my parent are like 4 hours away so it dosent really matter hahaha!!!!!!! Wow I have never done anything like that in my life but even if I get in trouble which I most likely wont it was sooo worth it!!!!!!! So even tho my feelings got hurt sooo bad it all turned out really good and I still love Shannon and Paige to death!!!! So yeah oh and when I got home I ate then Kyle called me and we talked until like 2:00 or somthin it was way fun!

Today im just chillin my brother is at work and I got to clean the whole house before my parent get home 2marrow. So yeah that’s bout it!!!!

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 6 DAYS!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO IM SO EXCITED I CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE U ALL!!!!!

Oh yeah and I have been tryin to get a hold of jess cuz I really want to talk to her I mss her sooooooo much and I really really want to talk to her!!!!!!!!

byebye

Happy Birthday Shannon Marie Howes!

So any way I haven’t really been doing much last week I went to school and stuff and on Thursday I went to the Choir concert with Kyle and tiff s. Shannon was ganna go but she was sleeping or sumthin but it was fun they did really good!! Friday I went to the movies to see Monster In-Law with Kyle, Shannon, Kelly, George, Travis, and Robert. And Kyle’s sister was there with some of her friends. Sat I went to Shannon’s house for a while cuz here family was there for her birthday and she was like bored and stuff so yeah. On Sunday I went to the mall with Shannon to get her b-day presents and we ran into Kyle, his mom and sister getting a present for Shannon’s birthday so that was funny. And yesterday (Shannon’s birthday) Shannon’s sister heather picked us up at the bus stop and took us to pizza for hr birthday then she took us to the soccer game. Kyle, Gabe, Matt, and Mike were there and then later Paige and Kelly came and we were hangin out at the play ground and stuff it was way way fun!!!!!!! Then matt was talkin to Logan on Shannon’s cell phone and like he said something about like Logan and Shannon goin out so like Shannon thought they were but today at school Paige said that they weren’t cuz nick would kick his ass. But Shannon wasn’t at school today so like I don’t think she knows but ill call her and tell. And today I went to school it was the seniors last day so everyone was all sad but I didn’t really care cuz I didn’t really talk to many of them. And yeah that’s bout it for now!!!!!

Oh and im way stressed out about the stupid Civics and science projects but mostly science cuz we only had a week to work on it!!!!!!!!!!! Error

Well g2g see ya later!!!!!!!

<3 tiffany I love Kyle!!!!!!!!

Kk so over the weekend my aunt and uncle still never found a house and it is just really really frustrating for me and a lot for my parents so yeah.

Sat. night- talk to Kyle until 2:30 in the morning it was way fun had to like hide it form my parents tho or I would have been grounded for ever.

Sunday- went my grandma and grandpas in Hesperia then came home and my other grandparents were here and my other aunt and uncle with there 4 kids. I really love those kids to man they are adorable there like my fav. Cousins!!!!!

Monday- School, then home talked to Kyle and Shannon then did absolutely nothing and went to bed it was way way way fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday- bout the same as Monday!

Today school and talked to Travis and Kyle and that’s bout it.

So 2marrow I have a civics test and a field science test so I really really need to study tonight cuz I have C’s in both them classes!!!!!! We had a meeting for Costa Rica today it was pretty boring we just talked bout how to raise money and stuff but im soooooo excited to go its ganna be soooooo much fun even tho Kyle doesn’t want me to go cuz he will miss me sooooo much but I wish he would at least be happy for me and not complain so much about me getting a job this summer cuz he will never see me and understand this is something I really want to do and I have to raise the money cuz my parents aren’t ganna pay for it!!! Anyway steph is having a bonfire for her b-day on sat. and im way excited about it!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I really love all my friends and im ganna miss them when I cant see them at school everyday!!

Shannon: wow hun sooooooo ur the best friend in the whole world for putting up with Kyle a.k.a Lyle haha being around all the time and for like getting along with him it really means a lot to me that u don’t get upset about it and stuff thanks much ur the bestest friend I have ever had I love u with all my heart!!!!!!!!!!

Paige: so yeah we haven’t really talked much lately u never call me and stuff and we never see each other at school it makes me really sad!!!!!!!!!!!!1 but I luv u!!!!

Jessie: wow so what its been like over 2 weeks since I called u we have both been so busy its really hard I don’t want to be to busy to talk to u its kinda hard for me not knowing whats goin on with u I hope we talk really really soon!!!!!!!!! I love u soooooooooooooooooooooo much and miss u more then ive ever missed anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kelly: sorry bout ur mouth hope it gets better hun luv ya lots and lots!!!!!!!!

Kyle: so yeah about the whole thing I said I no that I have said sorry a million times and I no u say ur over it but every time I think about it I feel like a horrible person I cant believe I said that to u I mean I wasn’t thinking at all that’s obvious and im just soooooooo dumb and I feel sooooo bad u don’t deserve that at all and im sooooooo unbelievably sorry u have no clue!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Plez don’t take it to seriously u no or at least I hope u no that I love u sooooooooo much and I don’t like him at all and I would never in a million years want him over u ok sooooooo just remember that ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love thank u soooo much for always being there!! ur the best!!! I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well that’s bout it man all my journals are really long I bet no one reads them and that’s y I never have comments!!! Sorry there so long but I can never get online!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Love u all Tiffy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!